armelus

Bizarre

2007-12-12T16:49:25Z

Timorrah's been acting strangely lately. It's...weird. He acts like an annoying girl with a crush. He'll get dressed in a really strange, flighty way in the morning and will hum to himself as he brushes his teeth. It's starting to bother me. Not the fact that he's got a crush, but the fact that he acts like a prepubescent teenage girl. I should probably leave him alone, because knowing his luck, the person will never know and will move away or something and Timorrah will be left with nothing. Haha. Just like that time with the ferret lady....poor soul.

Ahaha....

2007-12-10T20:45:12Z

I went to the hotel Seth was staying at the other day. On the way there, I ran into a snot-nosed kid who was trying to pick me up. It was...weird. He said that he was almost 19, but he looked like he was 13. I told him he shouldn't pick up older guys or they may take him away and rape him. Although...I didn't actually say that. ....Yah, anyway....

I went to Seth's hotel with the full intention of taking him out for cake or something, but it eh....it became a lot more than that. It's weird. I think I may have fallen for him. Ever since that time with Thyrri, I can't get him off of my mind. And Saidome has been bothering me lately, saying that I have a dazed look about me; more dazed than usual. I like to wander off in thought often. My thoughts continually take me back to him. I can't say anything to him, of course, because I'm too shy. I wouldn't know what to say, anyway.... "Hey, Seth...I've got a crush on you. Don't tell Saidome." Yah, right. Ah...just thinking about it makes me giddy and in a flighty mood, though. Especially since what happened at the hotel. I was only trying to repay a debt to him. I think I took it too far, though. I hope I didn't make him feel uncomfortable. I don't want to distance myself from someone I just got into liking.
I have always wanted to have a flighty, happy crush on someone. I've admired people for quite a long time who have those feelings. I feel that I can experience those feelings for myself. It makes me happy. I hope I'll be able to talk to him again soon; he makes me feel better about myself. Moreso than what Saidome does. I hope Saidome doesn't read this.

Worried

2007-12-05T16:23:06Z

After having been gone an entire day, Timorrah came home last night in quite a fluster. It weirded me out because he's normally either angry or too tired to think. He just kind of kicked his shoes off and sat on his bed with his clothes still on. It was also strange that he went to his own bed; normally he comes to mine since it's better than his is. He then just sort of laid down and curled up into a ball. I think he fell asleep after a little bit. The whole experience was quite strange. I tried falling asleep, but couldn't stop thinking about him.
Around midnight or so, he broke me out of a light sleep and told him that he'd done something wrong. I thought that he was going to admit that he finally stole some money from Jhenni since he'd been planning it for awhile but always had a bad feeling about it. It was nothing like that. He said that he had been doing something for awhile that I couldn't know about. It made me suspicious and angrilly curious since I hate it when he keeps things from me. Especially things that make him so panicky. Anyway, he told me that Seth had been taken and that he may have killed us both. Odd. I don't feel very dead at all. For some drama, I told him I didn't want to get out of bed and said that Seth would be able to handle himself; he was a big boy.
Timorrah cussed at me and pounded his fist into the bed. It surprised me, honestly. He seemed serious and I stopped joking with him. I noticed that he had begun to get emotional which always killed me. Most of the time, I wanted to hit him upside the head and suck it in, but he seemed truly worried about the whole thing. I hugged him and apologised for acting mean. That's when his emotions got the better of him. He started crying into my shirt and got snot all over it. It took me awhile to tell him it would be fine and that nothing bad would happen. My own emotions took over and I consoled him in my own personal way.
It's morning right now as I'm typing this. Timorrah is still asleep. Last night must have been rough for him. I want to know what's happened to Seth. It's a cause for concern. I'll let Timorrah sleep for now and ask about it when he wakes up.

Work is getting hard...

2007-12-04T20:51:43Z

I'm glad Saidome doesn't read these. It's a good thing his and mine are separate.
Work has been getting more and more hectic. I'm getting fed up with having to deal with Thyrri and what he calls his 'employees.' It's getting harder and harder to gather scrap for him without anyone knowing who I am. Saidome still doesn't realise what's going on...he thinks that I'm working as a newspaper boy or something to the likes of it. If he found out...I don't know if he'd let me out of the building anymore.
I've never been afraid of going there and making the drop offs, really. It was only yesterday that made me realise what I've gotten myself into. I'd gathered all the needed materials for the drop early in the morning and drove down to the location at the time I am normally scheduled for. Thyrri is always there in the same location, pacing back and forth as if he's been waiting for hours when in fact, he'd only been there a few minutes. I know because I asked him about it one time. He's just an impatient jerk. Anyway, I showed up yesterday like usual, but he wasn't there. This didn't bother me, of course. I waited for about half an hour before he showed up. I wanted to kick him in the shin for making me wait, but I didn't. I proceeded with the exchanging of my items with his money, but when I dropped them at his feet, he grabbed my wrist. It surprised me because he normally just backs up and away from the stuff and hands me the envelope moments later after poking to see if everything's there.
Thyrri asked me how my other job was going. I told him that this was the only job I had and I pulled my hand away from him. Let me clear this up first: I hate Thyrri. I hate him far more than I hate anyone, I think. Well, I hate him less than the commander, but I still hate him quite a bit. Probably as much as the commander. Anyway, I hate him and when he grabbed my wrist, I wanted to punch him in the teeth. I
As I was getting ready to leave, he asked me how my bike partner was doing. It made my heart skip a beat for a moment, but I continued to walk to my bike and told him that I didn't know what he was talking about. He said that I should pay closer attention to the simpler things in life; things I take for granted. I told him to shove it and I rode off with a chill down my spine.
It almost sounds like he knows about me and Saidome. But I have no idea how he would know. If for some reason he did find out, I may have put both myself and even worse, Saidome, in danger. Ugh...I hope not. It upsets my stomach. I don't think I want to go back there again...but I need money desperately. I guess I have to go back again. I hope that my hunches are wrong.

Too wet

2007-12-01T19:50:47Z

Hehehehe. I knew Saidome would finally break down and let me into the building. Well...more like...he forgot to lock one of the garage doors, so I was able to find my way in. Even so, I got into the building last night. And because I actually eat and work out like a healthy human does, I didn't get sick like that weakling Saidome did just from sitting outside of the bedroom.
I had to kick back for a little bit in Jhenni's lounge. I didn't know Saidome would leave the building today because it's snowing and he's sick and he hates the cold. But, he did. Probably went out to get some porno magazines. That whore.
Anyway, now I'm occupying the bedroom and have locked all possibilities of him getting in. Although I did see him right before he left. I gave him a nice, swift kick to the shin because he's been such a thoughtless jerk. No need to say anything more about that.

Ooh. I forgot this page was up. Saidome still hasn't gotten into the bedroom, but now I'm becoming bored. I want to go outside. I hate the snow. It's so cold and it's way too wet for me; gets my clothes all sticky and heavy. Horribly distasteful.

Stupid Flies

2007-12-01T17:32:53Z

It's snowing today. I like the snow; it is a change of scenery from all the rain that goes on throughout the year. Don't get me wrong, I like rain also, but snow is better. There's always a softness and calmness that accompanies it. Although...riding in the snow can be quite painful. Today I went out to get some flu medicine because I'm still sick and Timorrah's being a jealous little prick right now and noticed that my bike was covered in ice. Haha. You'd think that moron Jhenni would have the brains to either make a place where our bikes aren't in the weather or design an anti-freeze system. I'm going to talk to him about it later today, I think. Or maybe I should get Timorrah to do it. ...Although...that may not be a good idea. He kicked me in the shin the other day and it looked like he had been crying. Ayaa...I can't handle it when people cry. Especially him. It's better to just leave him alone when he does that. He's got a strong body but a weak heart.
Ahh....it's hard to think with my head all congested. My eyes keep going blurry, too. Hmm...I think I was talking about something. Oh, right. Man computers are nice; they store all those things you were thinking about and all you have to do to remember what it was is read the above paragraph. Haha. Technology.
Yah, so I dusted my bike off and practically froze my @## off while riding. I hate the cold. But I like the snow. It's a strange mix. Now I'm in a gushy mood. I need someone to talk to. It's bizarre.

@#$)(%&#)((#...

2007-11-30T15:17:41Z

So I came home from working late last night to find that Saidome locked me out of the building. I even bought his stupid lemon juice and honey for him~! I can't believe the nerve of that guy. It's his own @()$* fault that he was sick~! He kept playing with my piercing and getting in and out of bed on random spurts of something. I threatened that if he kept doing it, I'd lock him out of the room. He kept pulling at my ring and teething it, so I pushed him out of bed and locked the door. He was none too happy when I woke up this morning. Snot was running down his nose and his eyes were all puffy. I told him that I would do it~! The jerk knows I'm serious about those things. His own fault....
But, AUGH~! I can't believe he locked me out of the building~! @)(#*$%)*(&*~!! That whore is probably with that other whore we met in the streets that one night. #$)(*%)#*)(*~!! I can't believe him. I need to stop being so nice to him. And I should probably stop writing so I can make another attempt to get into the building. It's 4:00am right now and I'm in Dredge's Library typing this up because I'm so ticked off. I may ruin a computer if I don't stop here. Stupid Saidome.

Busy day

2007-11-30T00:06:47Z

Saidome here. Today was busy. I had to stay inside because I woke up with a fever this morning. Timorrah kept me up all night poking me in the nipples and playing with my piercing. I told him to stop or I'd give him a titty twister with my teeth. He didn't stop, so I practically chewed his nipple off. That showed him. Twit. I told him to go out and buy me some lemon and honey so he could make me a drink out of it. He said he'd rather see me die. That jerk. I won't be surprised if he came in and dumped a lemon and some bees on me and said that I should brew it myself. It's only because he's jealous of the fact that I have a pheromone in me that attracts people other than a sibling. Hmm. that reminds me. I should call Seth and see what he's doing. Wait. I don't think I know his phone number. ...Unless I do. But I don't think I do. ... I think I'll check with Timorrah when he comes home. If he comes home. I hope he brings me some lemon juice and honey. Ou...my back hurts. I shouldn't sit cross legged like this while working on the computer. One of these days, I want a computer implanted right into my face. That way, I would be able to do everything without typing. Sure, I'd look like a bibot but...wait. Nevermind. I don't want a computer on my face. ........Maybe I could just get one on my leg. Then I could cover it up and would still be comfortable with typing. ...Where's Timorrah? He's been gone a long time. Oh, well. I'm going to sleep. Terribly tired. A fever's not good when I need to go outside and meet a special someone tonight. Snot would be flying everywhere.